Everybody has a story. When I was 21 years old, I thought I should write my life story. Why? Because I believed that I had experienced so much as a young woman, and to me, I had seen it all. Being raised in a loving church, being on TV, attending the Grammy's and music award shows, etc., little did I know that I would end up using drugs and being involved with someone who would beat me as a sport until he was satisfied. And when that satisfaction needed more fuel, the beatings escalated to threats of death. This book has been hard to get out of me. Some things are absolutely too painful or shameful for me, but here I share in-depth; so that you, my readers, may know that you, too, can overcome your past and that you are not alone. I share a lot of my entire life, my family, and events that played major roles in my life. The title, Beat Up, Beat Down and STILL STANDING, has a REAL meaning to me. I have literally been beat up, with black eyes, busted head, bumps and bruises to prove it. Beat down, well, that's a term I've used for the legal system that let me down beginning in 1986 through THE PRESENT-I'm STILL waiting on my pardon. At the time of my arrest, there was no law to protect me against someone who said he was going to kill me (now it's called a terrorist threat). From then till now, "I'm still standing," and having done all to stand, I STAND. I write this book also for several additional reasons: 1) I desire inmates to be empowered through my story and gain hope for their lives life, contributing members of society. 3) I want society to know from the pages of this book and my personal experience that the legal system can fail, and if they have a loved one locked up, not to give up on them or the legal system-because all things are possible: 4) to wake up the effects of domestic violence and to bring awareness to this issue. 5) to literally show the process of "a life saved by grace" and how I "walked it out in."