"This book was written, published and edited by me in its entirety, and I'd like to just note that I am not a professional writer. There are most likely some errors in different places that I missed, even though I worked very hard to correct as many I could. I just grew tired and ran out of patience after proof reading and rewriting this novel over and over for many months after I finished writing it. With that being said, I hope you will enjoy my efforts to produce a story about the pain and anguish that can consume someone's mind when they are having difficulty dealing with a specific trauma. My own personal experiences that inspired this novel will remain undisclosed to the general public for obvious reasons. I'd like to thank all the readers of this novel with all my heart for giving my first novel a chance to entertain your senses." Christopher J. McLean An Exorbitant Lapse of Realism...... Introducing Jon McLeod, the author's visionary and keeper of the nightmares. Welcome to his world, his thoughts, his mind, his anger, his frustration.... Here is his story. Jon McLeod is a family man, and a good man. But, now his family is torn apart and will never be the same. Jon McLeod lived a normal life with happiness and contention. Now he lives as a hopeless and lost soul, and feels that he has no control over his future. Jon McLeod was a proud father who knew his daughter loved and respected him. Now he feels like he failed her and that she will forever resent him for what he has become. Jon McLeod just wanted live the dream the best he could, like everyone else. But now, he must live the nightmare, over and over again. Jon McLeod's inabilities to deal with a specific tragedy that has thrown his heart and soul into the burning pits of Hell will destroy his chances of ever regaining his once normal life, if he doesn't learn to find the way to rebuild his inner strengths. This is a story of the journey into Jon's mind as he juggles all his fears, past and present, through voices, images and unpredictable dreams. Experience his journey as he tries to find a way to cope with life after one of his own suffers an unforeseen act of abuse that will forever change his family's lives. Enter the mind of Jon McLeod, family man, the good man, who has succumbed to a life consumed with an exorbitant lapse of realism.