This book is the story of a man named Bill who committed such a terrible act against his wife, Beth, one night, that he thought he would never be forgiven by God""much less be forgiven by his wife. He thought he would never be worthy of that grace. Bill knew he had wandered too far from his youthful belief and trust in God, a life centered around his faith in God. As a man in his thirties, he could not find his way back. This is the story of how he labored to find his faith in God through ten years of agony with his alcoholic wife. Then she, too, committed the same unforgivable sin. And more. A miserable existence followed for both of them. But it is also a story of hope and how Bill finds that God is still there and wants to forgive him. God still loves Bill. But it takes a journey for Bill to get there. Bill makes his peace with God and begins to live his life the way he wished he had in his teenage years and then into the early years of his marriage. But he realizes after Beth's death and into his second marriage that he still cannot forgive himself and the way he treated his deceased former wife, Beth. It haunts him, and it is affecting the way he treats his second wife, whom he loves dearly. He realizes that Beth could never forgive herself, and that is what drove her to drink. The memory of her unforgivable sin. Can God forgive me? Can I forgive myself? These are the questions that this book tries to answer. Bill has to find a way to forgive himself, and this book is about how God helped him make that journey.